Just because...

Readers, by now you must, or must not have been wondering what my plans will be for the next year of my free schooling. Let me just say I have a lot of things I wish to do for my last year of free schooling.

1. I wish to be diligent in my academics during the school year and try not to be lazy at all. It will certainly be hard for me to do, but I must do it this year so I can at least get an actual nod from a college and not spam and junk mail. I wish to major in philosophy and English writing in college and the only way to get this is if a college paid me because I am quite simply, flat broke to begin with.
2. Continue my work on the school newspaper. Simply put, there is still much that I could do for the club and I wish to continue doing it.
3. Go into the talent show. Last year's show was horrendously awful and narrowed to the width of a hair if I must say. All the talent show has been since it started was singing and dancing. The first year it was begun, it had freaking magician and a band performance for crying out loud! I wanted to compete last year but I thought it was cancelled and therefore didn't bother signing on another time because I thought it would have been redundant. I must do this this year because of the fact that I do not want to sit by and turn my hearing aids off from bad singing. I want to inspire a new group of youths to take up the mantle of writing and philosophy, to do this, I must channel my inner transcendentalist and create a speech worthy of lasting memories and profound impacts on the school.
4. Obtain a summer job. I wish to work at six flags for the summer because I wish to buy myself a laptop computer just to have the freedom of usage that goes with it. As of now, I am using a desktop computer and it suits me just fine.
5. Keep up my work in my philosophy compilation book. Yes, the book I was seen all over the school last year scribbling in is my most precious possession, as it is my real voice. Thus, I must be diligent with my work in this book as well if I wish to compile it all into a book that I can unleash onto an unsuspecting public.
6. Interact for once in my no good life. The career I yearn for requires social skills of which I do not possess at this very moment. With that being said, I must try my hardest to connect with people of my age group which would be a very arduous task indeed. How many teenagers do you know today, who aspire to be philosophers or even know what the heck philosophy even is? Most teenagers these days want to go into crime and sell drugs or sell off their own bodies for prostitution and don't give a flying doo-da-day about the world around them and what they could possibly do to change it with their own power.

That should be a good set of goals to acquire for someone as self-contained, shy and anti-social as I am. I really do look forward to the next school year anyway, considering it will be something to do besides nothing.

Until then,

Yours Truly

What I could actually do!

This might seem or sound crazy to you readers, but believe me when you read this, I may be able to write my very own book!

Believe it or not, on a restless Saturday evening through to an even more restless Sunday morning, I was watching one of my favorite television shows on the CBS show "Late Late Show with Craig Ferguson" and Craig actually gave me a really good idea on how to write a book that every probably did anyway. Just start a book by writing a page a day. By the end of the year, you'll have a book, or as one of my previous teachers would call it: A "Juicy book" since it would be so thick and savory I'd bet. Thus, I'm drawn to the conclusion that starting.....maybe very soon....I will start writing my very own philosophy compilation book! It may not be following in the exact foot steps of my transcendentalist heroes, but it's a step in their direction! Perhaps on my status update informing you readers on Facebook about this blog entry, you could help me out by submitting idea I could use for my compilation book. Let's work together and produce a wonderful book by next....somewhere in August!

By the way, I'm having a very relaxing summer not doing anything. This must be what the kids who put out effort all during their school years must feel over their summer breaks. In September, I have plenty of goals in mind: Don't slack off in the slightest, try and do things ahead of time, rejoin the newspaper club, get into the talent show and stay in it, work more literary magic across the school and get passing, decent grades! Also pass that friggin' HSPA math portion too....

Have a nice rest of the summer,

Yours Truly

I'm so confused now

I just sat here at the computer I use and as I stared at my cat, Gabby, I was thinking about writing this entry into this blog. I will tell you readers that I am a man with a love of two things: Writing, and Anime. Ever since I was seven years old I've been deeply fascinated and super glued to the culture of Japanese animation. Writing has fueled an amazing writing talent in stories, essays and poems while anime has fueled my more productive imagination. Clearly, I have much interests in a prominent writing career, but I'm honestly more interested and motivated by anime, truthfully. Every time I think for a while, anime pops into my mind, every time I close my eyes, I envision completely original anime characters, I sleeplessly stay up on Saturday nights after midnight to temporarily satiate my television anime desire, sometimes I even read manga to pass time on the internet. In truth, I'm far more interested in anime than I am writing.

Now as I think about it, when I am able to obtain my writing career, I might not exactly be happy with it. Sure, I will always have anime and manga to lift my spirits, but will I truly be happy with being an author of some sort? You would probably recommend I try and work as a writer for anime magazines like Shonen Jump! or try to learn Japanese kanji so I can make a living translating manga, or something. I think if I can somehow combine both of my great interests to be an anime screen writer or something then I would truly be happy with my job. Of course, what kind of Japanese animation studio would want a lowly American like me? Of course, why should I matter anyway? I am just as I am. A young transcendentalist who just can not seem to find a proper place in the world. I am the type of person most college quizzes would find better suited for working in religious places when I am an atheist. I just have no idea. I love writing, but I might not be happy with it, I love anime, but I might never find a job that deals with it every day.

Of course, you might say to me by now: "Ryan, stop giving up on your hopes and dreams! You're a truly gifted and talented young man." True, I seem very gifted and talented, but you should know that I spent pretty much the entirety of my life dreaming up dreams and crushing those dreams myself only to dream of other dreams to be crushed as well. I once wanted to be an entrepreneur and own my own restaurant business, but that would require cooking and constant financial stuff, crap I'll never have the brains or patience for. I even wanted to host my own television show! Something I could never do because if it got popular, it would require talking with people and meeting new people, something I'll probably never be good at. I'll just probably waste away my life waiting tables at a crappy run down diner for all of my life anyway. After all, I have to face the harsh reality some times and that just might be my reality. I'm just a child that dreams way too big.

Later,

Yours Truly

Saved from the light.... The oh so annoying light

A few days ago I deleted everything I ever knew about christian rock on my beloved Pandora radio account. I liked that it was nice and I could listen to it casually, but then I just wanted to listen to Flyleaf on there and as I discovered bands like Halestorm and In This Moment, the christian music that I once enjoyed just got boring and most importantly, way too annoying. All Christian Rock music is is "Don't lose your faith, God loves you" "God is the answer to everything" "Jesus will save us all". Yeah, you guys keep telling yourselves that while you stupidly preach about a fairy tale story book character that's most likely to be a stupid alien researcher rather than some almighty presence of unknown origin. As you readers know, I am a proud atheist because the idea of a God or a higher presence is just too far fetched to believe. Why you might as? Well which one of you dogmatically believes in Santa Claus? Yeah, exactly. So as Christian Rockers always say, when you're struggling with your faith, keep it and you'll have an invisible lover. No, don't. Lose it already, you'll do yourself a whole lot of good and whole crap ton of knowledge, truth and reasoning will just dump onto you. What I did with my Pandora account was just make a new radio that seeded from Halestorm and In This Moment, so I can still enjoy those two bands without all the stupid fairy tale character bull crap that christian rock always spews out. To think I even liked listening to that junk.

Oh, yes, I'm listening to Classical too,

Yours Truly

I've Changed

The following piece of literature basically a sort of letter addressing my childhood as a beloved old friend. This little thing is something that came to me when I was sitting here and thinking of things. So please, have your respect for me, the writer:

I've changed since we last met.

I've grown up a bit.

I've lost my faith in religion.

I saw through the lies that plagued this world.

I've decided on an excellent and rewarding career path.

I've discovered a new part of me.

I toyed with my own emotions. Even once thought of dying.

I went through depression.

I saw the rights and wrongs of humanity.

I spent days thinking long and hard about the life ahead of me.

There are still times when I try to remember you.

I know our time together was short, but it was very special.

I can only remember you in tiny fragments.

I miss you, dear friend.

We are victims of time, and I know this very well.

We'll each get older, you, farther in my past.

Time will pass by the both of us.

I'll still miss you. Always.

We never said our "Good Bye"-s.

I'll just cherish our time together, and the tiny fragments I still remember.

Wasn't that great?

Yours Truly

Crumbling America: day 3

On The Government

With the country being in a recession, the country's already in shambles economically and today's people just do not approve of the government. As a matter of fact, as long as I could remember, people have not approved of the government. When a country's government is no longer approved of by the people, it already spells doom for a nation, just like many in the middle east. I for one believe that America's current government is an okay government. Mostly because we haven't overthrown it yet, so it must be doing just fine. Most people today are just frustrated and I can see that. They have probably lost their jobs, they're upset over the riding gas and food prices and the government today just has not done good enough to be approved.
I just do not desire to see this country ran into an anarchy in my lifetime and with the predictions seen in "Earth 2100", it may just be a possibility, unfortunately. It is true that there have been many other democracies that have risen and collapsed, all just under their own sheer weight. I do not want to see this country suffer the same fate in the future. It would certainly be a devastating constant disaster.

Next segment: On teen pregnancy and one-parent

families

See you next times,

Yours Truly

"Earth 2100" response

I stayed up from one in the morning to 3 in the morning to watch a tear jerking, heartrending tale of Lucy, a fictional character born on January the first of the year 2009 and lives to 2100 and she narrates a story of her life during that period, with skyrocketing gas prices, global warming, global population explosions and declines with famine, disease, wasted resources and rising sea levels. The people in the documentary wanted for it to be a wake-up call to Earth to get moving to save the planet since we have the technology to save our lives. I want to live to ripe old age to see Earth prosper in an eco-friendly and enriched environment, I want to die a happy man, I want to know that Earth will continue to host life long after I have become oil. I do not want to die an unhappy and distraught old man who was trying to live in an America that has collapsed under its own weight due to its lack of resources and crazy weather patterns. I want to die knowing I have left a legacy in literacy that will be enjoyed by millions and taught in schools worldwide. I urge you my readers to take a stand and help save our Earth. I want to live to 2100 myself and see to it that Earth made itself out for the prosperity for our future generations to come.

Along with Global health, I would like to see Global Unity. I want to see all of the human race band together, a collapse in religion, an end to unjust hatred and war, I want to leave this Earth seeing that. Let us come together and work to make that happen,

Save our Earth,

Yours Truly